Hello lovelies, welcome back to itsjustabbsxo!
I thought todays post I would share with you a quick update on what’s been happening this month of January. It has been a bit of a rollercoaster; I mean, isn’t January always a rollercoaster of emotions?
Okay so the first thing I want to mention is that I am no longer working as a support worker, I was asked to make a decision about my role quite quickly because if the company put me through my training and I decided to leave before six months, I would have to repay all training costs. Not only this, I was struggling so much with this job; I found myself crying between clients and feeling extremely overwhelmed. I think it was because as I was seeing the clients at their most vulnerable state, it was just heartbreaking for me and I wasn’t able to separate work life and personal life anymore. I had to do what was best for me and that was to leave. So following on from that, I spent the month on the hunt for a new job role; ideally something that allows me to grow and build a career from. However, when applying for a new job, I was applying for anything and everything to try and get me earning some money. I have attended several interviews so far and am feeling positive regarding these roles; I am currently waiting for some more information following on from these interviews.
Okay now enough about jobs; I feel like it’s all I ever talk about and it is just exhausting. I have been really trying to focus on myself this year, I have been looking after myself and really thinking about what I am putting in my body. I have even started working out!! My mindset towards my body hasn’t been very good, I’ve been feeling really self conscious recently and so I want to make a change. This below image is quite hard for me to share due to how I am feeling about myself however, I am proud of how my body has changed already and I am trying to love the body I have. This images were taken; February 2019, September 2019 and December 2019.
January 3rd; I had a really lovely day out with Kane; we went to the beach and decided to have a little photoshoot of some of the old boats up on the rocks. I had such a lovely time, I really can’t explain the joy I get from being by the sea. It makes me feel so calm and refreshed; ready to tackle a new day. It’s nice to go down to the seaside to clear my mind, allow myself to just listen to the waves as they crash in and to just really get rid of those bad thoughts.
I have started experimenting with my photography this month; trying to see things from a different perspective through the lens. I have been doing this with different materials – I have been wanting to post more on my instagram but dont want to keep posting the same type of image – so I have been wanting to really experiment and try new things with my images. What do you think?
And there we have it, a quick update with what has been happening so far; I like to keep you in the loop as best I can! How has your year started? I’d love to know your favourite memory so far!
Until next time, Abbs xo