Well hello there my lovelies; welcome to August!
Oh, how I love that we’re slowly but surely making our way into the autumnal months. July was yet another confusing month for me; I feel like this year has just been a huge roller-coaster (whilst I do love a good roller-coaster, I wish this one would take a break and chill!).
Netflix… I have been absolutely loving the recently added section on Netflix this month – such great shows/films are now available!
Kane and I started off the month with a new horror film, we watched ‘Look Away’. This was such a weird horror film, in fact I don’t think I would even class it as a horror. More like a thriller. The main girl in the film has a secret twin that seems to be stuck behind a mirror; no one can see her except the main character. She is a bit of bitch and causes pain and trouble to the people around her. It is such a hard film to explain so I will leave you with this… watch it!! Even though it wasn’t what I expected, I enjoyed watching it – I wish the ending was a bit better though.
As well as this, they have put on the entire series of Glee onto Netflix. I am so beyond happy that this is on Netflix; I have been watching it all month and am now on Season 5! It just goes way too quick 😦 I can’t help but get super emotional when Finn sings… ugh and the goosebumps I get when Rachel sings. (P.S: I still dislike Quinn just as much as I did when I first watched it)
So last month I told you I had signed up for my degree and I was really happy about it… well, I made a mistake. I am 100% confident that marketing is not what I want to do. My heart isn’t in it, I can’t see myself doing it for the rest of my life. Should I really pay a lot of money for something my heart isn’t into? So, I cancelled it. And that brings me to now; I am working on me. I am working on finding myself a path to follow and that’s the way it is going to be for the time being.
For around a year now I have been going through something that, originally, I thought was nothing, however it seems to just be getting worse. I have no control over how I feel. One minute I am overly happy and then I am a crying mess. Sometimes I feel like I am sinking and screaming, and no one notices and other times I feel I can’t get out of my bed. I don’t know what’s happening, I know it isn’t just hormones because my mood can change so quickly, and I have no control. I get angry so quickly over nothing and I end up taking it out on my family and those closest to me. I hate it. I finally opened up to Kane about it – I felt this huge weight come off my shoulders. He was great, he just listened and gave me his advice. It felt so good to finally tell him how I have been feeling.
I think I need to find myself a hobby again; I need to find my love for makeup and creating beautiful master pieces on my eyes. I need to fall back in love with it. I find that I can achieve this by buying myself a bunch of new makeup that I haven’t tried before. I have a huge basket on my beauty bay account and am now just counting down the weeks for my birthday so I can give it to my family! Makeup used to make me feel so confident and happy; I would spend hours in front of my mirror creating new looks and taking 1000000 photos (just to never post a single one!). It was my way of getting my creativity out. I need that back; I want that back.
As well as makeup; I also need to throw myself into workouts and healthy eating. Once I start trying to make a difference to how I look, it will help the way I feel. Going for a run or even a walk releases endorphins into your body which make you feel good and positive; it also helps you to get a great night’s sleep!
My goals for August:
- Spend an hour every other night reading peoples blog posts and commenting
- Work out 4 times a week
- Drink 4 litres of water a day
- Start using my positivity journal
- Start meditating
- Spend less time on my phone and more time reading
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Until next time, Abbs xo